When I
look back it doesn't feel anything less than catharsis that I experienced the
whole of last year. An event happened which almost completely changed the
course of life, in fact, it feels as if the whole track of progression of life
has been transformed. I spent many days dazed by the just overwhelming emotions
and how they trampled me leaving me exhausted and gasping for some anchor, some
foundation to hold on to. In the restless state I almost began with a vengeance
what comes very naturally to me anyway - reading more. Read some self help
books, some spiritual literature, personal sojourns of many who perhaps felt
the same at some point of time, some travelogues, some travel diaries of people
in search of self and so on. I could see a common thread running through all
these kinds of books - what led these individuals on the path to discover more
is usually some life changing event - in most cases loss of a loved one. So I
could relate to the feelings, apprehensions and emotions that were narrated by
the authors.
Read
books written by authors as diverse as JP Vaswani, Karan Bajaj, Dalai Lama,
Lance Armstrong to Sheryl.
Since the
mind was so desperate to hold on to something, a few things did come out of
these readings and which I gladly made a part of my life and routine. Even
though these are being incorporated on experimental basis only but I do feel
(at least for a moment if not more) my agitated state of mind transitioning to
tranquility.
Firstly,
Begin the day with a thought - Parampita (the almighty father) you stay with me
throughout the day and day after day. Other mortals may have mortal parents but
I have immortal parent who is looking after me.
Secondly,
If any thought, any feeling or any situation brings disturbance to my system,
remind myself of my companion first and then put the disturbing thing in his
'to do' list. It is for Him to take care of it, not me.
Finally,
whenever hands are busy but the mind is not engaged, try to attach it to
chanting of something - 'On Namo Bhagawate Vasudevay', hanuman chalisa, maha
mrityunjay mantra, any other shloka or mantra. If nothing else, it does pull
the mind away from negative thoughts.
Am I
successful in implementing these three things all the time? No, but it is work
in progress. I do consciously try to bring back the mind to these three things
as frequently as possible throughout the day. Brisk walk early in the morning
is the time which I look forward to, in order to try dedicating the rhythm of
feet to the words - Om Namah Bhagwate Vasudevay…